you know how they say you'll have your ups and downs during grieving; well, i'm on a major down.
it's so frustrating wanting to be okay and not being okay, even though you are desperately trying to be okay. Sitting here with puffy, bloodshot eyes, trying to dissociate because right now, feeling nothing is better than whatever i'm currently feeling.
i wish someone could tell me all the right choices to make but then again i thought i was doing everything everyone was asking of me, but it was turned into ....something else... you know like being turned into a monster and being fired.
but maybe knowing every right choices leads to not knowing life anymore, cause even mistakes can ends up being better for you at the end. suffering is a part of life, it means that u have feelings, that u are human honey. give yourself some time <3
ReplyDeletethat's what i've been trying to remind myself; it's just so hard. my career was the center of my universe. it'll just take some time <3
Deletei’m really sorry you’re going through this. grief is already hard enough without feeling like everything else is falling apart at the same time. give yourself permission to not be okay right now’ you don’t have to have all the answers today. sending you so much love ♡
ReplyDeleteYES exactly !
Deletethank you so much <3 this is why i started my blog, to feel connected to the world again. grief is so messy; I am just trying to be cautious of how long i let myself be in the messy, sad part.
Deletei’m so happy you made this blog then there are probably thousands of people who feel exactly how you feel right now, and someone might come across your page and feel a little less alone because of it. i can’t wait to look back at your posts later this year and see how your journey has changed and all the different things you’ve shared along the way. take all the time you need with where you are right now. i’m rooting for you! me and mimi are!
Deletethank you <3 i can't wait to see your journey too!!
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